_In A State Of Trance

Sunday, July 31, 2005

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Hmm my posts are always like bout yesterday. Ok this is what happened on friday. Gp lesson first, as interesting as always. Then saw chey ying crying halfway. wondered why. Many girls have been crying this year indeed. Halfway thru chem went to hall. Then realised why she cried. Mrs ho, crying, announced that an odac year one girl died. Shocking of course. Take nothing for granted, hmm. Treasure life! Dont just keep mugging and forget more important things! Ah always saying that but this is singapore sadly. Dan thought Mrs ho was going to announce that there have been thefts in the labs or something. During the break i had a mighty long chat with freddy. Truth is i felt like a retard after more than half an hour of 'enlightenment' talks with him. Was reading some bio stuff when he came over and initially discuss bio stuff. It soon became crap which triggered even crappier response from me as usual. We had no idea what we were talking. Then played squashminton in the afternoon before bio remedial. O squashminton only became a sport that day. Basically played 2 on 2 badminton with squash rackets and ball in squash court. With a lot of reckless smahsing of course. Its quite a miracle my racket survived all the throws and tosses.

Parents day at 6. Had to expect the worst of course. James was before me. Heard M.F tan telling his father and him that he shouldnt restrict his career to just teaching. Then my turn. I had warned my parents that tan was indeed a M.F. But ppl like him are relatively smart and he knew how to change image and adapt, much like a chameleon, hypocritical creatures, just that he is by far uglier. His tone that day was gentle and warm. His hair was made down, no spike. So he told my parents that i have not been doing work, accused me of copying work, skipping other lessons. Which were not true of course. He was bringing me down in a nice tone, while my father was defending me desperately - That i have always been a good student and many good things from the past that is. But he said he couldnt understand what happened to me upon entering jc. M.F tan suggested bad company. Says he doesnt like seeing the three of us together. My parents seemed hurt. My father especially. Was telling me how much i have dropped. I was quiet throughout. i knew i had let them down. But he did understand the fact that M.F tan sucks. As a lecturer himself he knew the consequences of having a screwed up teacher. He told me to conc on studying now then show the triple As to that M.F and abuse him in whatever way after collecting results. M.F still holds tremendous power now of course, for he is writing our testi.
I want my parents to be happy again. Its gonna be a stern test of determination and resolve for me. And i want to fuck the M.F's cunt with decent enough results.

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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

My poor hamster of 4 years is dying! It must be in terrible pain... The fur has been dropping then today i saw a huge red tumour! It hurts just looking at her carrying on with life as if nothing's wrong. Euthanasia crosses my mind... but then i think i will just leave it and let nature takes its course.. The average life span of a hamster is only 2 years afterall... It has lived so much more beyond and my mother and i, well actually mostly mom, had been giving her such a good life. Tonnes of food, nice cage with the running thing, cleaning a few times a week etc.
Gotta fucking mug. So wtf am i doing online.

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Thursday, July 21, 2005

Went for ns check up yesterday. Met up with guang rong at cmpb. Had to wait for him like half an hour? So i had to go measure my size for helmet uniform and stuff first. Then proceeded for medical check up. Lucky was together with gr for everything. Had to wait for a while for our turn though. First was the urine test. We had to dip some paper provided inside our cup of urine. Testing for diabetes i think? Then blood test. Then a quick dental check. Then went to x ray room. Stripped off top and was told to breathe to maximum. Then the eye test. My degree seems to have stabalised over the past few years it seems. But there were these cards with 2 colours red and green mixed with patterns forming numbers. Couldnt tell at first thought were some funny patterns so when the guy told me to read i just stared. Took me a while to figure out ha. Then the hearing test which was pretty quick too. Next proceeded to some room where they stuck electic sensors all over my body. Think that was to measure fat percentage in yr body. I am made of 20.9% fats! Then had to wait damn long for the final station. So me and gr decided to go to the canteen. Think we werent supposed to leave the place halfway but we talked our way out. Ate the M & M's that xueyi gave. She gave chocalates and cards to the crush crew! Appreciate it. Ya that was my light lunch apparently. The food there wasnt appealing at all seriously so just bought a drink. Strolled back and was just in time for my turn! phew. They examined my precious family jewels of course and marvelled and envied at it. Ok they told me to cough. Checking whether that part will move. Done. Pes A they said. I wanted pes B. Gotta go for iq test next week though...
Anyway celine was having pms yesterday i think. As good a tutor she is what she did was really unproffessional. There was like 5 mins left in the test? Dan was resting. She walked over and asked him what he was doing. Then told him to get out of the class together with his table and chair. Serious pms man. Siao one finish test no right to rest meh? Jc still like that. Seen more of these in primary school. Shame on her. I wonder what she does to her husband when she pms lor. Throw table and furniture when he refuses to do it with her? Threaten him with a kitchen knife when he refuses to go shopping with her?

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Super outdated i know. Friday: Went to clark quay to film the pub scene and some sad scenes. Found a nice pub called one night stand and managed to get in even though it states 21 and above. Even secured permission for filming inside. Bought a cocktail called singapore sling, contains vodka and fruit juice. Wasnt quite used to it at first but became addicted to it after a while and ended up drnking like 3/4 of it? Man it really made me so sleepy for the rest of the day. Gwen and alex were shooting the scene where they first met in the pub. Think it was that day that i took on the additional role of photographer for crush. Took many pics of gwen and alex. Then went to liang court or something to take alex's sad scene. Super deserted so it was ideal. just took him walking an empty pathway. Gwen's was her sitting alone in the pub or something?

Sat: Was planning to go ecp for filming. Dan reached there first and turned out to be flooded like mad so had to change location to pasir ris park! woo hoo! Used to love the stuff there. Esp the pyramid climbing thing. So i relived my childhood again! Damn nice to climb. Also the rope thingy and some new spining things. Gwen and alex were racing up the pyramid thing for the scene. Ha and i had to climb above them to take photos of them balancing just with my legs of course kinda cool. Took the beach scene bet me and alex too. We were playing soccer and flimed some gay moments. Then went marina south for kite flying! Gwen and alex were pretty good with it i turned out. Must be the wind ha. Me and dan ended up breaking the kite in the amazing race. Initially wanted bowling but was too crowded so decided to head to zhong guo. Filmed them shopping and stuff. Then rushed back to dan's house for peng's party. Blowed the balloons before the guests came. xx fred james peng and dans friends came.

Sun: finale. Went dan's house in afternoon. Jeff said do chem prelim together. I already knew work is something that cant be done at dan's house so tried to mug a bit until i wasnt in a mood to anymore then i went. As they prepared the photos i worked on my diary which was truly a gay one full of scribbling. Dan's room was pasted with pictures of gwen and alex and in a real mess. Then filmed alex's shock part in my room, which was not an easy one as he had to show changes in emotions. Then came my stabbing scene. Dan wanted sweat. So i wore two layers and started jumping like a crazy ass. Sweated like mad and legs cramped up. Then became a psycho while stabbing gwen's pic. In the process my eyes became red and it really made me look psycho. The last part my crying part. Could only generate tears but couldnt cry. There hasnt been many sad moments in my life really. No family problems, not much emotional trouble. Disappointments plenty but not sadness. Trivial problems only induces anger. So they started putting medicated oil around my eyes first. Apart from a burning sensation, i was far from crying. Then xueyi chopped onions and placed them close to my eyes. There was some effect but not enough to make me cry. She then suggested sniffing the onions! ha it definitely didnt work for me. Jeff told me to rub the onions with my hands and place it on my eye. Didnt work too well either. So i placed the onions really close to my eyes and resisted blinking and tears started to flow after some painful moments. My eyes turned red too. O and they were rubbing medicated oil all over my face to make my tears more obvious and my face was just burning man! The last part was the running part. Then finish... after one week of intensive filming... It does feel a bit weird to just suddenly stop filming. O but the black band me gwen alex and dan wear shall preserve the fond memories. I say sequel to crush after a levels! After we collect our due awards for crush.

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Thursday, July 14, 2005

Been filming the past few days... Tutorials piling up as a result and of course, couldnt be bothered to blog.. Once again adrian M.F tan was present to wreck us up. Confiscated our ez link cards on tue and ask us collect at 7pm. So we decide to go out. Wanted to go kovan, but fate brought us to bugis i guess. Proceeded to the board games cafe where we met its friendly but slightly feminine owner. Its original rate for playing games was a whooping $10 dollars per hour, one dollar for every additional hour! Talked to the owner for a while, i convinced him that we will spread by word of mouth his shop to our friends in ny and gave him contacts for ny. So, for just 2 drinks, we got to stay there for as long as we liked and got to play whatever game we want. Good stuff. Scheming games we played.. ha all became schemers. Then at 6 plus we headed back to ny. The bus took damn long to come and traffic was shit so was gonna be late a while but as expected AT couldnt wait so he left and we had to collect it the next day at 7 pm.

So next day, wed, we stayed til 7 in school this time round and at 645 msged him. Found out that the ****** left already. Of course it was not that wasted. Did some filming in the afternoon. First the walking scene then the crying and hugging scenes. Xueyi had to cry first, which initially was pretty difficult. Played truly madly deeply to induce sadness in her. But it only brought tears to her eyes. So we waited quite a while for her to get the right feeling to cry, but to no avail. Finally she called chunying to come down and make her cry. We thought there wasnt any hope as chunying seemed well... pretty cheerful. Boy did she prove us wrong all right. She said some 8 weeks thing to xueyi and slap here touch there, wah then suddenly tears flowed from xueyi like water from running tap! So, acted my part in consoling gwen and had to get her to lean on me. Then gwen had to hug alex next! Ha jeff shy as always took some time to appropriately hug xueyi. I had a scene next where i had to look angry while seeing them hug. Ended up looking like a psycho i think. Hopefully that suits my character. Then took some photos before xueyi left while we stoned til 7.

Today! did pretty intensive filming. Not really for me but more so for gwen and alex. First, he had to practice being seduced by puan(the bitch). Took some time also as puan didnt know jeff and she had to stroke him around and stuff. Then xueyi had to confront them. The longest part was the quarrelling scene between gwen and alex. Took like 2 hrs maybe? Both kept laughing as usual but finally they produced an intense quarrelling scene. Proceeded to dan's house after that. Filmed the sector 81 part first( the longkang at his estate). Went relatively ok. Then the part where alex came to my room. And finally the phone part before we left which was like close to 9 pm. Intensive filming for next 3 days to come! The closer we edge towards thousand dollars?

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Sunday, July 10, 2005

Being a lazy piece of shit i have not been blogging of course. Aint gonna talk about the mids or how screwed i am, will be. The Crush crew hit town yesterday(Fri) for filming. Started at far east where the loving couple alex and gwen were shopping and poor ben has to tag along. Jeff and xue were pretty weird while i had to try my best to fit in at the same time feeling neglected. Then proceeded to borders. I had to continually jostle for alex's attention and he keeps rejecting me. So my role kinda sucked. It made me feel really left out. Then went heeren to take neo print and then to nydc for the final take. Spent some time there trying to get jeff to smile and talk normally ha. Then rushed to meet up with alex mart and xx for F4 at Lido. Nothing spectular i must say. Its short for a marvel film and i would presume the sequel to be better. Jessica alba is hot though. The movie wont be the same without her seriously.
I never supported London in anyway. Must have been some conspiracy theory between madrid and london to oust paris from hosting the olympics. I think the voting for olympic venue should include a wider range, larger group of people. London pales in comparison to paris in everyway. Britain pales in comparison to France in everyway. Its infrastructure is old and the environment is more polluted compared to paris. Culturally paris is definitely more appealing. Apart from that, london is home to 2 of the ugliest football clubs in the world, arsenil and chelski, which happens to be supported by a fat dick called adrian M.F tan. What was on my mind during the voting day was also the issue of terrorism. Britain, being the most loyal dog as always to the U.S, was the most likely among the five cities competing to get bombed by terrorists. In fact, paris is the safest place to hold any major event. There hasnt been any terror attacks in France and there wont be given france's opposition to the iraq war and independent foreign policy. Moscow had the threat of chechen rebels, Madrid is fresh from bomb blasts and New york from 9-11. With terrorism high on the agenda, i thought the obvious choice would be paris. The stupidity of the IOC members will unfortunantly be proven the next day. BOOM! 4 bomb blasts almost simultaneously in london's transport network. Blair, as capable as he is, has paid the price for being the lackey of Bush. Watch out Australia. It doesnt pay to be close to an idoit like bush.

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

Triple Fs? Actually i dont know. I am ever the optimist! I calculated i got 34.5 for chem which is half a mark away from O? They will round up! I boldly predict i shall get 30/40 for bio mcq! Then that will be O too! Then those will be an exact replica of my mids last year. It has been really difficult to pass anything in Jc. I have to stop being so calm. But the last minute culture has been instillled since secondary school. Anyway played bball as a class today. Its hard to believe we were actually doing sports as a class! me xx jeff dan xueyi chunying wang cheryl yueting nicole. Wah the netballers kept scoring man. My aiming is as usual always screwed. Nicole was mad. She's strong man, then can layup somemore. Xueyi was the poacher beneath the net. Its been so long man. Not played since the sec 2 sec 3 days when we played as class. Me and alex the 'predators' outside the box were actually the disruptors of a normal game usually doing stupid things. The pros were Jeep, bran and alvin i think. when being the team captain i would normally select one of them then fill the rest of the team up with nonsence ppl. Then it would be a one man attack while at the back we would form one line and slowly pass to one another. Usually mad with laughter of course.

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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Watching ECW one night only now. Yea miss the wrestling days, the days of Stone cold steve austin and the rock were memorable. Tv for a monday night has been good. The rock at 730 followed by desperate house wives and now some wrestling. O and roger federer is one class act man. His strokes are superb. Watched the wimbledon finals last night.

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Monday, July 04, 2005

Man i have had it with being labelled ps kia or whatever. CB think i dont wanna go out is it? Wah they go town so late then having dinner in orchard without the ability to bite is just stupid. Edwin being the more considerate one, asked me to come out after i ate my 'specialised' dinner at home. That would be 8 plus given the duration needed to prepare and cool the freaking porridge since i cant eat hot or cold stuff. By the time reach orchard nine plus play what shit? How to play lan? think can only play lan j*a*. Wah try to go out in the afternoon tmr la. Theres a truck load of vulgarities coming out now. O watch out! !@%$#@$#$%^&%$$@$#^&^#@%$!%@$*^&^()*)*_(*)(&&^^$$@$!@#!#%*^(*&)(*

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

Bloody fucking cooped up at home. Fucking missed so many things. CHMA on fri and Cat High home coming and soccer today. Just kept playing maple which was all i could do. So bloody lethargic, breakfast eat oats, the rest of the day eat porridge and drink barley. Some more have to eat 4 tablets and gurgle with shit after every meal. I really hate being so wise man.

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Friday, July 01, 2005

First, i was coated up wearing those surgery gowns and everything has to be covered, my hair my shoes. Then i was led to the operation room by Dr seah. He asked me: "Have u ever been bitten by red ants?" "In yr mouth?" Then he pulled out a needle containing anasthetic or something and jabbed my gums inside. Then he said the worst part is over. I was like fuck off man. He left for a while giving time for my anasthesia to take effect. Slowly i lost sensation in my lower right area of my mouth. The nurse then covered my eyes with a cloth. A few other nurses were like preparing the equipment and they were like laughing and chatting. I was going to get fucked, and they were doing this. Then Dr seah came back and started the surgery. Initially he was applying a hell lot of pressure on my wisdom teeth, pulling and yanking here and there. Then there were lots of funny noises, some clanging some cracking, then the unmistakable sound of sawing and drilling. The last part i was wondering what the hell he was doing, felt him pulling strings in and out. Turned out to be stitches. before i knew it he said the tooth had been removed. They said the op would be 20 mins long but think it took 5 mins for mine! They then came to the conclusion then wiser ppl get their wisdom teeth removed faster. Then i had to bite a gauze for like 2 to 3 hours, and have to take pain killers when neccesary and antibiotics after every meal. Once the numbness was gone, man the pain was shit. Quickly took pain killers when i reached home. Then i realised i am gonna have a shit load of time trying to eat. The moment i try to bite my teeth would touch the wound. So a diet of porridge and soup beckons for the next week i believe. Which leads me to wonder how am i going to go out...

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Gonna pluck my wisdom teeth in a few hours time. Being wise has its disadvantages i guess. Got 4 wisdom teeth man. Only gonna pluck 2 today though, the side that has been giving me a little discomfort. My only concern now is how i will be able to go out for the rest of the hols with a swollen face and a slightly screwed mouth! Will be the first surgery in my life even though it is a minor one.

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