Tuesday, February 08, 2011
Its another one of those nights where I feel a sudden melancholy, the kinda crashing back down to earth feeling. Perhaps in the previous few days I have been riding too high on the Coldharbour sound, where the last 2 episodes of GDJB have been absolutely wicked Sek.
Nowadays whenever I get emotional I think of her first. I miss her, but I am not exactly in the best position to miss her. She is in her favourite cultural land, with guys who are either korean or into the whole Korean culture thing, so whatever she is doing with the guys there, I dont know. However, whenever she talks to me online, I gain hope and happiness.. but then I am left to hang on a thread over and over again. Its hard to tell from msn what her true feelings are, whether if she is just a naturally chatty person online or she likes talking to me. She makes me go crazy like no girl has before. In order to fully pursue her, I need to know if I am in her frame of reference and if she is still 'available'. In another one of her mixed messages, she said she is a 'hot and sexy korean girl' that I may like, before concluding that she is not available. On the day that she left for korea, I told myself that I would let both her and myself move on. Within 2 days, when she initiated a conversation on msn from malaysia, that thought was thrown out of the window. Well, I am gonna push deeper in conversations with her to prepare and shape my assault in Melbourne. Now, this part is filled with uncertainty. I havent really chased a girl before. To do it in a foreign city, for someone with interests that are not the most familar to u is going to be a challenge. But it is one that I have to take. It is part of being a man and a process which will enable me to grow regardless of whether I am successful. If cupid or any love god is watching, I could really do with some guidiance, wisdom and confidence. Confidence comes with having a sense of purpose in your life, and that is always the second issue on my mind.
So where I am I going with my life? I wish honours is the right path for me. I am not too sure, but it is merely a sensible path ahead while buying myself more time to sort out just what I want to do in the future. Right now it seems to be something to with music. Not as a musician, but probably in some music events company. Which is where I hope I can find something meaningful to research for in my Honours for marketing. This area requires more thinking in the next few days, as well as reading up on research methods. I want to be ready for an enjoyable nerd year heh. I also want to carve out a part time DJ career this year, and work part time in some music/academic related field too.
look at the stars ;
Saturday, February 05, 2011
Markus Schulz, Moonbeam, Arnej, Tucandeo, Mr Pit, Pobsky, Rex Mundi, Barnes & Heatcliff, Mike Foyle, Marcus Schossow, Skytech. U guys are my heroes
look at the stars ;
ABOUT ME (:
Likes: kicking balls, roofing, beaching, laning, stoning, chilling, light sabre fighting
Music: Progressive House, Trance(Coldharbour, Markus Schulz), Cranberries, Jewel
Fav Players: Patrice Evra, Park Ji-Sung, Ryan Giggs, Carrick, Scholes
Fav Tv shows: The OC, House, South Park, Simpsons, Prison Break
Movies: Infernal Affairs, Crush, Starwars trilogy, Spidey, LOTR, Batman begins
